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[Walter has recorded a video message from the point of view of someone who has just come through the door into his cabin and sees Walter at his desk in the chair turned around to face the viewer. He gives a little salute-wave.]

Didn't get me. But nice try.

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From:

deuceoftears

Yes, of course the barge is set up for intermittent stabbings. It's fantastically efficient for achieving graduations. I know most wardens are too idealistic to admit the full extent to which it's built into the system. If it's any consolation, most of them really don't know. Either because they have all the strategic sense of a badly poached egg, or because it's too emotionally painful to admit they couldn't fix it even if they did try. Or both, obviously.

I'm sure that's immensely frustrating to run into as an inmate. Sorry.

Justine almost certainly is going to continue to cause trouble, because my first job is to help her grow, and that precludes putting her in a box with a muzzle on and throwing away the key. But my second job is to make a damn good try at making it difficult for her, and my third job is dealing with the consequences when I fail.

What I want to know is what would matter to you. An apology? Better protections from her? Tit for tat? I can't promise to enact specifics sight unseen, but it would shape my focus.

From:

forensicks

See! I told Malcolm I really thought what I did would get me out of his hair by Christmas. (I mean he'd be done dealing with me in time for an important holiday where wishes come true.) You see, being subjected to John and Arthur's physical and emotional experience of being hurt by my actions was an idea Malcolm came up with because of my lack of remorse at the time. Justine's lack of remorse seems pretty similar, going off how he talked with her about it. However, I have reason to believe she'd be able to blink off a similar experience of my pain easily. If John is genuinely disappointed in her, then feeling *that* magical experience will get a reaction.

From:

deuceoftears

Yes, I do see why you'd think that. A tempting trap so many inmate overthinkers fall into. It's only the impulsive ones who get out lickety-split after realizing they hate the consequences of what they just did and they never even want to do it again. Anyone calculating enough to see the pattern is a little more inured against change. Observer effects, etc.

It has got you started on your path, I imagine, actually putting some of what you're capable of on the table. Pardon the pun. But if I were a gambling man I'd give you at least another year.

[Jedao is absolutely a gambling man.]

I wasn't told the details of your punishment, but you're quite right that she wouldn't be fazed by the physical pain of your experience. Unfortunately, I don't control John's reaction. I do think my disappointment will matter to her as well, albeit to a lesser degree. Would you say that what you want is a consequence that gets a reaction from her?

From:

forensicks

Yes, according to the trends my fantastic impulse control has gotten me selected for getting broken down into a second different type of evil person than I already am. We've established that incapacitating inmates is limited in scope, then. What could I want *more* than a reaction, that I could possibly get? Malcolm pointed out to me that my glib affect could get me a lot of time in prison even back in the United States, and that much I'll admit, but I do think two years for one murder is a bit odd in comparison to, say, six months for twenty. Thousand.

From:

deuceoftears

My father did four and half years here for over a million, which I will admit was a bit galling. But to be fair, he'd been tortured for 400 years back home before they finally finished executing him, so. Win some lose some, if you'll pardon a bit of glibness of my own.

To your earlier point, I do know that the barge isn't just. The barge isn't trying to create justice, just change. Anyone who says differently isn't paying attention.

[To say nothing of how many people that might be.]

But I need to teach Justine accountability. So I still need to think about what could be just. And I do think what you want matters to that.

If you wanted an apology, comma, any, comma, possibly aggravating and slightly humiliating, I could probably arrange that. If you wanted an apology, comma, sincere, I probably couldn't get you one from her any time soon, but I could give you one myself, in her presence, with enough earnest groveling that she'd probably dislike it immensely. If you wanted to never see her again, there's probably a way to phrase that to the admiral. I don't know. I'm creative.

But a reaction gives me leeway to use what I know. And I do have some ideas that I think will have an impact. May I ask, how long did it take you to heal, if you weren't healed magically?

From:

forensicks

About two weeks. I refused magical healing because it was small and the supplies on hand were pretty good. That's actually what I did with my bigger wound during the trial for sinners too. Before we unpack all that, I should have asked... who's Justine to you? Before all this. A couple days ago.

From:

deuceoftears

Someone I had hoped to befriend. I'd been her temporary warden prior to the Enposib, and I liked her. We are very different people, but we share a delight for novelty. Some things about her worried me, a little, but we weren't at a point where I felt like I had any right to go prying into it; now, obviously I have a duty to do exactly that.

Edited Date: 2024-12-04 03:49 am (UTC)